Over the past few weeks, I have been struggling to keep up with life, school, and all that is in between. And yes, JS frameworks as well. [Laughs in hidden].
But most notably, the pressure of getting good at something, and the disappointment of falling short on the promise to yourself, can at times leave you with a sense of dread. A sense that maybe trying isn’t worth it, if the outcome remains the same.
I like to tell myself, that after being curious, I should be brave.
For come what may, tainted with the stench of failure and regret, then I hope that my willingness to try might be of some solace.
I am translating it to a tangible deed such as getting good at web dev in general, but what frustrates me the most is that I am not good at being good.
I succumb to impulses that leave me bereft of colour, with a fear of even trying again, if the inheritance of any endeavour under the sun is oblivion.
But I want to try again.
Try to master my craft, and be proud of my work.
Try to be good.
For if greatness was never in store, then goodness will do.